Feelings.

I was doing a project about emotions
and I realized I was sort of illustrating emotions that I was relating to at the time
not necessarily exploring a vast array of them...
The quality of the work also started to suffer
and the range in styles seemed troubling to some
and did not give my work the feeling that a series is supposed to have.
I kind of went all over the place
without really straying too far from the theme I was running with
which seemed to be sort of negative emotions...

maybe one of my professors was right to say
its one of those things where its like the audience
is missing a piece of the story when they look at this.

I don't know where I'm going to go with this really.
But I liked drawing them.

Also, in any surge of emotion, vomit is relevant.

Paper Dolls

Part of my self promo thing for another final
I would send these out as mailers
maybe.

people gave me a decent response to the whole paper doll concept~!
but we'll see how this goes.
I need to work on skin tones.
I guess they do look a bit dead...
both in pose and in color.
I'm not much of a photoshopper when it comes to coloring.

I'm not much of a computer person in general.
hm hm hm.

Sketch Project.

project was to do sketches that fit together in a series somehow.
most elements were drawn separately
and then I had to figure out how to compose them.

I drew most of these when it was quiet.
and I tried to choose things that are very quiet.
I'm tryin to communicate quiet.
so I hope they come across as being quiet...

What You Think?

seven sins (rough)

everybodys been telling me different things about my art lately.

I'm glad for the feed back
but now
I dont know what to think

of course it would come
when I'm going to graduate...
but better late than never...!

Exhale.

Can I use this for special studies?
Is this legit enough for me to quit
worrying?

everybodys sayin
different things about my art.

and that alone
is both
making me want to do better
and
bumming me out.

the bummed side is just sittin with the determined side
side by side
staring at a wall because they dont know what to do...

Bed Speculation.

this is where I sleep.

this is where I do my work. sometimes.

sometimes I wonder
if I'd be more productive
if I had a space to do work
or work on art
that wasn't my bed
or a shared space
like the living room coffee table
that I only use at night
sometimes.

maybe I could be better.
or maybe
dragging the coffee table next to my bed
sometimes
or being in the living room
staying up late to work
works.
for now.

wanting more may be too much to ask.
probably...

Pirates.

Old pirate drawings and gestures from costume figure drawing class.
I remember I was so psyched to take that class
people wearing clothes posing for you to draw ???
it was so fun just drawing for 6 hours...

I don't know what I'm doing right now...
BFA shows coming up and suddenly I feel like I suck at art again o_o

Cant Sleep. Spring.

cant sleep
cant sleep
cant sleep

for a second I was so enthralled
with what I was doing on the computer
that I forgot where I was...
computers are scary.

I don't know what it is
but I have severe problems
sleeping at night...

partially I feel a bit guilty,
sleeping I mean,
like if I stay awake
I'd be so much more productive

maybe I should start trying to exhaust myself more
these vacations are troublesome that way...
I'm so relaxed
I have too much energy.

Cray.

I feel like I've been getting quieter lately...
and its really affecting me.
I'm sleeping horribly
and having bad dreams again...

I've never been one to react strongly to things.
I tend to be very quiet about everything...
so why have such strong reactions
to the most meaningless things?
I dont know...
that shits cray.

Lately.

I've been drawing in my sketchbook a lot lately...
now
best be catching up on late work.